Pigs / monkeys, Friday

I could easily say that I'd wish for Sweden to limit on immigration but how could I? How could I when I've once heard a mothers cry at night when she worried for her relatives safety back home? How could I when I have once seen a child whose childhood got taken away from him when death presented itself at his doorstep? How could I when I know what it's like to leave everything behind and start over in a place that offers you peace and quiet, though the horrible memories will haunt you for as long as you live?

Yet, I can only imagine what these people have gone through. I may never fully understand what it's like to experience such things though I, myself came to Sweden all because of the war in Kosova in the early 90s.
I've seen how the amount of immigrants have increased throughout the years though I would not say it's a bad thing as Jimmie Åkesson (the leader of SD) would like to claim.
All these people come to Sweden for different reasons but they all have one thing in common: They want a life- a better one at that.

Surely, some immigrants commit crimes but how is that relevant? The only reason I mention it is because mr. Åkesson likes to use this as an excuse to his political views. Note that I don't call it a reason, but an excuse. I'd say there is a great difference between these two words.
But for arguements sake, let's say you feel let down by your best friend who you expected to be there for you at all times. You are most likely to turn your back on this friend when he disappoints you.
Now, let's say the system is your friend and it lets you down. Will you still be the same, lawful abiding citizen as you used to be though you expected so much in return? I'd say a let down would be the natural response but I bet you will claim you'd stay lawful and abiding which wouldn't surprise me the least bit. In fact, it would make me yawn. But the question is: Do you really mean it? I believe you have to be there to know it.
Let's go back to the system. Why oh why do I blame it on the system? How does it even get in the picture?
If you put three monkeys in a cage. Surely, they will act like monkeys. But what happens if you put two monkeys and a pig together in a cage? Will the monkeys still act like monkeys or will they interact with the pig? Sadly enough, we shall never find out. Areas such as Rosengård in Malmö and Tensta in Stockholm are over represented by immigrants. Still, I hear swedish people walk around saying: - Why do they live in our country if they're going to speak their language? That's unacceptable!

Firstly, you have no business telling anyone what language to speak. Freedom of speech involves language too, you know?
Not to mention, having all monkeys locked up in a cage all together will only result of them speaking their own language. How would it possibly include the language of a pig if there are no pigs to be found? Please tell me, how?

Another arguement mr. Åkesson likes to use is the crime rate. According to him, it's over represented by these monkeys. Monkeys steal, monkeys rape and monkeys even kill innocent pigs and they mean to tell us that it's in their fucking nature! Yeah right!! As if a pig would never commit a crime! For fuck sake, they even root in dirt! Pigs as monkeys and monkeys as pigs. Neither one is worse than the other. Both of them are capable of stealing, raping and killing so what does it matter what animal it is? It's the act and don't think nothing more or less!

The truth is, we're all animals and the sooner you realize it, the better. Stop lying to yourself and before blaming the monkey, look at yourself. Are you any better?
Finally, I do believe freedom of speech is great and is to be used. Even by mr. Åkesson who has opinions for which I despise but respect. However, this does not explain why 230 000 people voted for him Sepember 20. State of mind is no excuse by the way.

Relationships Thursday

Before u read this, u should know i'm really good at jumping from one subject to another and then go back to the first and so on. Try not to get confused.

Trust

Understanding

Communication

Passion

And respect . The most important thing.... something people don’t really seem to know much about so i'll just give u a few of so many examples.

Not being okay with certain things is not a problem. Its perfectly normal. The problem is what do you do about it? Should u do something about it or should you let it be? Some let things slide because they don’t want to be that girl/guy who's always in the way. Even if you as their partner have the right to, u instead draw the line. You want to be that understanding and loving person, especially when no one else is. That’s when he/she will see it the most. You simply don’t want to set too many standards. Why not? Don’t you deserve the best? “No ones perfect”, u're thinking. Well, there u're wrong. No ones perfect because what suits you might not suit someone else. So unfortunately no ones suitable to answer that riddle.

Most girls are satisfied as long as the man has a job or got future plans. Whatever comes with it doesn’t make any difference and some are just simply happy that they're with someone. If he's been out partying without you, if that doesn’t bug you “I trust him” then that’s cool. Doesn’t really have anything to do with trust though. If you, on the other hand, get this feeling that it's wrong, you prevent yourself from reacting. If hes out with his friends and u and the other girls aren’t invited. Sure, that’s cool because u don’t want him around you all the time. He isn’t that fun. But if you get that feeling again. Again, you don’t say anything about it. Instead u might go like * I really wanted us to kick it today*. Again, preventing yourself from reacting. If he has other girlfriends “I trust him”. Again, it doesn’t have anything to do with trust. If he watches porn “all guys do that”. No, they don’t. If u're okay with it then that’s cool but if ur not and u get that same feeling and yet you don’t do much about it, u don’t want to seem *controlling* in any way so u stay quiet and take it as it comes.

Some of you might think I just described the meaning of jealousy. “Jealousy is a bitch”. But could it possibly be that you want to have that special role as his girlfriend? The only girl that he can talk to. Only one who understands him. You are the only thing that can heal him from anger and sorrow. Is it a bad thing? If hes out partying without you and u dislike it, then just say so. If he doesn’t do anything about it, oh well.. at least he knows how u feel. The rest is up to you. If hes out with the guys only, then maybe u had that feeling cause you wanted to be one of the guys and that part is about feeling special. Ur the exception. If hes watching porn and this goes for the ones that’s okay with it too: I could care less if u're okay with it. Either way it shows no respect towards you so u're just plain dumb. ”I do it too.” Great then u're meant to be. When u're having sex, it should be special and i'm not talking about romantic stuff cause I'm not really into that. I'm talking about the whole doing it thing. Making love is just a way of showing how much u love that person, how much u care about them and no1 else matters. Bodylanguage. So how can a girl go that far with someone who jerks off to other girls? It's not your body he's watching while doing that and it sure as hell isn’t u he's thinking of which would only be humiliating. Say he's in another place and you can't see each other or call each other if he gets in the mood and there's no porn around. Is it okay for him to go F somebody? I mean, ur'e not there and waiting for you is not an option.(apparently). If he gets turned on by someone else, whats the difference if he goes all the way really? Double standard, I call it. Now, let's move on because this porn thing and people being okay with it is a mystery to me. Let's talk about something familiar to porn but just a little bit different. Let's say something nasty shows up in some movie u'd feel stupid to bring it up. It’s a movie and she only showed her boobs..oh and she's an old lady, grey hair in her early 80s… doesn’t have anything to do with looks really. It's all about respect. So to make it short, I don’t believe jealousy exists in REAL relationships. There's two people with two completely different point of views that share something special together. You should expect something different from each other so call it anything but jealousy.

Now if ur'e okay with all the things I've mentioned. U think having girlfriends is okay, partying, porn and so on. If hes out having fun, talking to his girlfriends (maybe about the problems u're having) “sometimes its better getting another girls point of view”, jerking off to some porn. Then really, what makes u so special to be his girlfriend? U're one of the girlfriends he can talk to and if he gets turned on by you, maybe even before watching the porn. Well hey, he gets to go all the way with you! Have some self respect.

All girls want to feel special in some way, preferably in every way. Don’t be afraid to have standards. There's no stupid demand and he wont think so either if u're worth fighting for. Guys, movies, music.. (u name it), have convinced people that it's all jealousy, why? What's their purpose? Should we lose our self respect and think that all this is all so normal. No one else cares so its nothing..? Should there be so much that goes against what you really want, you too finally think it's okay? Novels have actually made women think that there is no such man. They only exist in the novels. In the novels, classic movies, songs,, the men actually do most of these things mentioned without the girl asking him to(doesn’t include todays music and movies by the way) which in the end will only make us satisfied with what we get because that is so unreal and ridiculous. On the other hand, if the girl is the demanding one, they make her look like a power hungry freak, insecure, psycho bitch.

While the other girl. Let's say he cheats on her with who's suppose to be the tramp, is instead the understanding girl, innocent. The rescuer. So let's just face it: in one way or another, this world has and always will be owned by men.

There was once a time when men respected women. When women weren't afraid to have standards. It was our nature. And men fought to get the one they wanted. Men didn’t see the point of having female friends. They had names for those kinds. When seeing only your girl naked was a must. Where has time gone…I guess I was born too late

Why are all the men acting like little girls nowadays? They're to good to fight for whoever. They can't take rejections. Now if some guy u've been into for a while walks up to you, you throw yourself at him. But what happened to first impression? Afraid he'll go to the next girl? If he would, then I guess he didn’t want u that bad.

Women have wanted equality for a long time now and its gotten so exaggerated that men cant even open the doors for us. They cant be stronger and they shouldn’t let us speak first. Were not handicapped and so on. It's ridiculous really. But still it's not only from the womens side, men suddenly feel like they can too wear make up and not be fags. They feel that they should shave their armpits, legs. Fix their eye brows. That they are more secure in their sex wearing pink which makes no sense to me. None of this does.

Men are supposed to be stronger. There's weak men, sure and there's strong women but men are suppose to be stronger either way. If I was stronger than my man, I'd leave him in a heartbeat. Doesn’t mean I'd admit that I'm weaker. I'll just know deep inside that he's stronger than I am and that doesn’t bug me the least. In fact it turns me on. The shaving, make up, pink and all that feminine stuff is just too much and any girl who's okay with that should question herself if it's really a man she wants.

If you think all these demands sound ridiculous, you should see the rest of my list. I find something new that bugs me almost everyday. I'm special therefore I demand the same. I'm self confident, strong independent and I know exactly what I want and what I want doesn’t grow on trees. Either he'll love me for it or he'll never want anything to do with me. Either way, i'll know for a fact that he's never had anyone like me and never will. I wont be the one looking for him, never that. When he finally finds me he'll be my Mr. perfect and if he turns out to be a mistake, oh well... If he's not out there it's okay cause I'm perfectly capable of functioning on my own.

Life, Wednesday

Life is such a great topic, isn't it? You always end up having a conversation that lasts for atleast 4 hours with a friend and it always has to do with life in one way or another even if you're not aware of it.
There are different aspects of life and it never seems to get boring. Why is that? Well, probably because life is a mystery in itself and all we can do is talk about it.

What happens when we die? Why are we here? Is there any God? All these questions have probably crossed your mind at some point in your life and its fully normal. You might have your own answers to these questions while some of us just don't give a damn.

Some do need a purpose to be able to make it through the day though and I don't blame them. That's how religion gets in the subject and it actually offers a lot of peace of mind to these people that worry about death etc.
I actually wish I could believe in all these beautiful things that are written in the holy books but I just can't. It takes a lot to convince me in anything. Firstly I need proof, proof and once again, proof but I don't find any of that in the books so I try not to worry too much about the purpose of life. I love living too much and a life of worry is no life at all.

However, I think a lot of things fall under the life category even if we don't think so cause everything does really but especially the deep subjects that's got hidden answers for which you probably never will get to find. There are things we aren't meant to know in life and it can be frustrating to some but for you to enjoy life, you need to try and leave these things alone. Respect the mysteries and play with them but you have to know when is enough.

Sometimes, I think we expect too much of life. We expect there to be a purpose but who says there is one? The answer could be too plain and simple for us to bare so we like to complicate things, don't we? Now, I find that frustrating if anything. I believe the purpose of life is what you make it to be and it's different depending on who you are and what you're like, what you're into etc etc.

At last, I'd like to finish this off by asking you, what is the purpose of your life and what do you need to make it through the day? There are no right and wrong answers to these questions, only honest and dishonest ones.

Music, tuesday

If I don’t like a certain song I wont call it music. I will call it a sound. A kind of sound that's familiar to an alarm clock, perhaps a vacuum cleaner or a cry coming from a baby....NEW SCHOOL. I'll call it anything except music and if I hate the song I'll even call it noise.

Jazz, rock, house, dance, country, hip hop, metal, rap, r&b, blues, punk, techno, reggae, pop, dance hall, classics, reggaeton and oldies are only a few of the music genres there are. It's like every genre is a bag of heroin. Whichever u choose, it'll give u different feelings. Some better than others and other better than u thought and as long as they're in their places I'll know where to find my very own brand. Sometimes they’ll mix two genres together like rock and rap and it can be exciting. The song either becomes a hit or a big mistake. None of the artists wants to let their fans down (earn less money really) so it shouldn’t happen too often.

Still, in the music today.. all they seem to do is mix everything up and I'm not talking two genres but all of them put together and they make it into some kind of a pop song “garbage”, I call it and oddly enough people love that shit! It mostly involves some “R&b” artist starring some horny *rapper* who likes to call himself/herself a rock star and the background music is techno or some weird noise. The song itself, is about some lipgloss or socks like the world is that perfect. Not by far! If anything it got even worse.

Oh, and we cant forget about the auto tune. Sure, I can see why auto tune is useful to these new artists - THEY CANT SING! But when someone like Usher or Mariah Carey who has been around in the music industry for some time and can sing, when they go doing the same shit as these other clowns it gets annoying and very confusing so u try to figure out the most reasonable explanation to that. They probably sold their soul to the media which is far from reason. They want to be out there recognized and all that. So now everyone makes the same junk. Everyone sounds the same, nothing to compare anymore and there's no such thing as r&b, rock, soul etc etc. They're all put together. Well… isn’t that great.. It's like eating spaghetti with strawberry jam, YUMMI!

To me they're just a bunch of hopeless cases so in the end I can only blame the people. Why do you listen to this shit? Do you really like it? I bet those artists don't understand why you like their shit either. They're probably into the old school as well but hey ! They're getting paid right? Not that difficult to make a song that goes something like: “1,2,3 I wanna get wasted today” and if u can't sing, you can rap and if you cant do that either.... you can just talk with some moaning to it and you got what it takes! Lol, give me a break… all these artists were born with a silver spoon up their ass. Of course they don’t need to be talented. A person who is into all this junk, ask that person what type of music they're into! They’ll say “- Oh anything really.” Only because they don’t know what to call it! Insecure people..

I have so much to say about all this but to keep it short, I'll just say that if we wouldn’t have the old music still with us today, I'd say music doesn't exist anymore. Music used to be beautiful. It used to bring out feelings, be there as comfort, make u dance and now it has lost its meaning and its purpose to be here. 

 

People, monday

Ive never been a great fan of people. The opposite would be more like it. I despise people and why do I despise people?

Well I am a human being. Yes, I am guilty as charged. I am not special in that sense because just like you, I eat, drink and sleep but what differs me from you is far more important than the things we share. Here it comes.. ready? I have a mind of my own, you don't. You are fully capable of thinking for yourself but still you don't do it. Why? Beats me...

Sure, I could communicate with you, no effort needed. You are easily understood and very predictable. Wait a minute, let me rephrase that. You are very boring. All these responds you give me...well.. i've heard them all before.

There are way too many followers so try to make sure you dont fall under that category because it's not pretty. However there are only a few leaders. No matter what, there will ALWAYS be followers because not anybody can lead and I'm aware of that.

People are afraid to stand out and they wont express a feeling/opinion unless they know it's okay to think a certain way. For instance, people are awfully sensitive these days and they're scared to call things as they see it. If a man wants to pay for a meal or open a door for a woman, then that disrespectful because it's degrading to women. Women would lose all their independence after a thing like that right?

Another example is how kids are old enough to do whatever they want. Shit, go ahead and pierce your tongue, dress up like a freak and why not experiment with sexuality just like all your cool friends. You would never hear any objection from ur old folks even if u begged for it because obviously ur entitled to act a fool these days. A way to express yourself even though we both know it's not really you, is it?

Physically disciplinating kids these days is child abuse by the way... though i'm all for it!

Oh well.. I've not always been like this, you know? Once upon a time I used to think people were quite interesting but like George Carlin said it: "eventually I reached the age of reason" and I realized that people share the same mind. Oh, and hopefully I'm not referring to you!